I won't lie, the reason I decided to become a musician, a song writer was because it sounded like a cool idea. I was what? 15, when I started my band Yggdrasil. Everyone bitched about the name, but I didn't care. Later I found a small significance to it, and grew greatly attatched. Any name know is obsolete. I even created a symbol that everyone bitched was the Mitsubishi emblem. It's the holy trinity only upside down to form the letter "Y" in "Yggdrasil" That's all. All of tough times started with the band.
I am a song writer, musician now because I have grew up, and I have things to say. I'm meerly, what? 19? And I feel like I have alot to say. Not about me though. I'm a person who loves to stand out, but hates being critisized, it's rediculous really, I'm starting to get over it. I have tons of things that bother me and alot of people don't agree. It's funny because I'm told I'm talented, I'm charming, I'm great. But in reality I'm not. And no, not everyone reveers me so, for example my ex started spreading that I have "a disease" along with a few mis informed miscreants, as I'll call them. And what sucks, is that people are also reveering me 'cause I'm not upset about it. Stupid half the shit I do.
I have this.. complex, that I have to be up on top, I have to be number 1, and that everyone should know it, why? I started thinking about it. Mostly 'cause I never really got the attention I wanted as a child, in school or at home. But I've grown up from that. at least now I'll admit I feel so. Some call it a superiority complex, I'm not going to go research this for the sake of this blog.
I started this blog just so I can comment and a fellow musician/song writer's blog, (Buddy=Senses Fail). No I do not know him. But after reading what he posted. Damn. That's some intensity, I look at him as a stronger person now for doing what he did. He fought hard to stay strong. Which is what I believe. That we should just fight a little harder for what needs to be accomplished. I don't know I could be talking out of my ass.
-Yoss
